I found one of the thing I wrote while I was at YWAM last time, and found it very encouraging, and a great reminder at the pull I had felt to return as a student. This is what I wrote:
"July 30, 2011 7:00am, Saturday, Kona, Hawaii
This week is such a confusing blur to me, so I'm hoping that somehow I can write it all out and get it all out of my system. The presence of God is amazing here, but the one thing that keeps it from being heaven is that even though God is so strong, you can still feel the evil one and still be tempted by him. I feel so natural here and so normal. I feel like all of my life, THIS is the home I've been looking for. I feel like everything has lead up to THIS place. Especially my restlessness these past few years. I can't imagine being away from this place for too long, but after today I will have to leave for a year, before I can come back. I feel no fear here, none whatsoever. I could walk around by myself at midnight or later and still not be afraid. This base is not only the closest thing to heaven on this earth its a haven, a citadel like no other I've experienced before. I came out here expecting to grow closer to God, and to get to know my team and to have a blast being able to be in Hawaii again. All that happened and so SO much more. In this place I've had someone see through me as I've done to others, I have screamed God's name in praise and felt my heart and entire world tremble under the power of His love. I've cried the happiest tears in the two worship sessions, and I've finally felt God fully and been able to know what he desires me to do. My problems aren't fixed, and neither am I, but I'm so much closer and I now know its possible once again to heal from my diseases. Thank you God for bringing me to this place! and for putting a calling on my heart to come back."
1. Girl, you can write!
ReplyDelete2. I'm so excited for you to be able to return and I know that God is going to do so much more than we can ask or imagine while you're gone. I will miss you but that's ok because you will be following God's calling and that is so much more important! ;)
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Delete1. You didn't realize that before? ;)
Delete2. Thank you Ed! You have been such an encouragement and blessing through this entire thing. I know I'm going to miss you a ton, but it's only for a time.
I'm going to comment too, because I'm cool like that lol. Just reading through this first one I'm excited to see everything else you have to say. It's really cool how you interperate you experience and feelings into a piece of writing that has the ability to make the reader experience it almost with you. It's a skill I do not contain but you put it out there with almost ease, like it's just natural and you don't have to think about it.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to comment too, because I'm cool like that lol. Just reading through this first one I'm excited to see everything else you have to say. It's really cool how you interperate you experience and feelings into a piece of writing that has the ability to make the reader experience it almost with you. It's a skill I do not contain but you put it out there with almost ease, like it's just natural and you don't have to think about it.
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